Hurdling balance

In my world..
Weighing the scales of life, the balance isn't proportional and yet mistakes are inevitable.
Not knowing sides to take cos the end is the result that is the precursor of fear.
Being inbetween can never be a relaxing environ cos the issues on each sides is enough to blow or drag one to an untold error.
That proves my theory the balance is rocky and which is far dangerous than not infusing actions.
In a problematic situation, one is faced with character criticism, attributes and how one faces it.
Facetious people are mostly tagged devious but genuinely looking into their inner minds they are just masked.
Time peels out the deviousness and what remains is devastation cos what's left of the real self is meaningless.
Sides approached should be done with critical thinking with a clear and open mind.
Obviously hurdles and spikes surrounds everywhere even crawling out of that situation could take a massive toll.
What seems intriguing is the fact that choosing directions isn't the major issue but not being blown off into a counter direction is, decisions are still influenced and the outcome is a questionable one.
Didn't I do my best??
Didn't I give it my all?
Was I ever wrong in the path I chose?
Unknowingly there are factors unseen that destabilizes plans.
What's worse still is the fact blame finding cuts across the mind which brings up bitterness and hatred even distrust for one.
The advise wasn't worth it or not a good advisor one could think of.
A closer look at it, the best answer and easiest way he/she could ever think of was what was given.
Shortcuts to happiness.. Oops there isn't one.
One should ponder..
I got myself into this mess, I should bring myself out.
Two heads are better than one, true of course but not entirely when you leave the thinking to someone out of desperation.
Proves my statement a calm, clear mind is what it takes.
How sure are you, your advisor has a clear mind.
Coolheadedness can be achieved by any one, a still, peaceful and focused mind is hard to.
Was the person state of mind ever considered?
Humans sometimes are mostly self absorbed..
With all these tough choices, one is pulled back into doing nothing..
Nothing is riskier than making a choice.

Ignited deceit

Broadening the scope and mindset of the dead.
Their intuition concerning their loved ones.
Lots of them that feign love when greeted with the tragedy of the demise of a loved one.
Looking from the other side, fogs are lifted and one could see clearly.
Looking down seeing jubilation at every corners.
Comments on how great it was to be known and will always be remembered.
Anger won't help the deception planted in the minds of those present.
Everything a sham, cover-up scheme.
If they actually did show a little concern
Might have turned out differently.
A little love can make a difference.
Throwing deceptions around for all to catch.
Cos no voice can speak again.
Sharing the details.
The past is disregarded and the present is acknowledged.
Pretense is worn expensively on that day.
And pride the master of ceremony.
If all the riches were given when the heart was still beating.
All these won't be wrong.
Displaying your full potentials at the latter end not when needed.
Just for applause and praises from those who doesn't matter.
But who mattered is laid to rest due to abandonment.
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Displays of wealth during a burial means nothing to me.
If the deceased was never paid any attention or care.
Partying endlessly for days won't rid you of any guilt that's if you've any.
Singing praises won't change the memories printed in your heart.

Lamentations of the decedent wasn't heard.
Giving excuses when needed.
Rushing without pause after it happened.
Due to carelessness.
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These are just food for thoughts.
Did they get all they wanted in life?
Were they perfectly cared for?
Let your mind travel far and the truth exposed in your eyes.

Distasteful pleasantries

Imagine and relive this words..
Let it filter through your mind registering every bits and processing all images.
My mind is open for exploration.
Those who can withstand the blackness are welcomed
Take a tour to my past, paint an image of my pains acknowledging the feelings.
Taste your lips, that's my tears dripping from every corner.
The bitter taste of my experience all mixed in it.
Listen attentively to my voice you can hear the hurts attributed with each syllable.
Draw in a breath.
Breathe in the stench of my anguish.
Take a walk in my path, discovery made will be shocking.
Shattered floors is all it could ever be made in.
Piercing my feet with each steps as I walk comfortably headed to a place unknown.
Come into my mind, search the deepest parts.
You'll find I hold no desires.
Possessing no treasures and feeling no grief.
Dig further into my memories, I cherish none and wish for none to be cherished.
Look into my present, you'd notice am an island.
Surrounded by fences, letting no one in.
Have a drink of my feelings.
It holds no regret of what I've become.
Look profoundly into my heart once more and silently make a wish.
There's no room for wishing when you are in it.
Rather a door is present for all to leave.
Essence of being runs on distress.
Distress that are hard to let go.
Discover a spring in my mind, refreshing every ache daily making it anew.
Watering and growing as I become hardhearted with each astonishing growth. 
Find patches on the wall of my heart.
Were made to block those permanently who had high percentage of coming in.
Each patches are of different sizes.
Figure it out for yourself.
Question your mind and I'll listen and answer.
Cos you in my mind we both are synced together.
Hold your grounds don't get sucked in.
As unexplainable as my inner dwelling has become, it could be passed on to explorers.
Here's a key to my mind.
Keep searching till you get answers..
Not forgetting the foundation lays on negativity.
Keylock will always be visible.
Welcome to my world!!!